I never even got one last picture of the fast growing baby huneybirds (I am kicking myself in the butt now). It was Tuesday afternoon, I watched them fidget in their nest and saw Mrs. Huneybird perched nearby, then I went upstairs to shower (yes, I got a late start that day). An hour or so later, we were all headed to the park when I went to take a little peek and there were gone. G-O-N-E. Gone. Nowhere to be found. My heart sank. It is still a bit low, darn, this empty nest thing ain’t gonna be easy. Thus, Sun and Moon were now off on their own somewhere. They have yet to return and visit us. We put a feeder there hoping to entice them. Still haven’t seen them.
May 7, 2009
I know one day my children will leave me and grow up and make nests of their own, but I am hoping that one day comes very slowly. Though, word on the street is that day comes in a blink of an eye. I don’t think I will ever be ready. Is anyone ever ready for that “one day”? It is coming slowly, but surely for my parents and Ben, well, he flew far, far away years ago. I have a rule: my kids have to live in the same state as me. Can I make that rule? I don’t know, but I am making it. Oh no! As I type this, I see the kind of parent I will become… I will try to rule my children’s lives forever. Okay, maybe I take back the rule. They can live wherever God calls them to. May God get my heart ready for that one day… yikes, I dread that day.
All this empty nest talk and thoughts is due to the fact that we really do have an empty nest…
We miss you Sun & Moon! You provided us countless moments of entertainment. Brave and True (Ben and me too!) want you to come back.
Onto mother-ness. I like being a mother, scratch that, I love being a mother. Some days I don’t feel like a very good one, when my patience grows thin and yes, I do have those bad days. I am not perfect. Thank God for the cross! I really need to constantly remind myself to find the joy in serving my family, it is easy to forget when hormones are raging. See everyone, I am normal. Despite my shortcomings, my girls still love me even when I’m cranky. I am so thankful. I love them so much and highly recommend motherhood. It definitely changes you. You get an extra dose of understanding and compassion as a mother. It really is amazing.
Plus, I get another day for me, since I am a mother. Another day to get spoiled by Ben (no pressure Benny!) and my girls. I like being spoiled by my husband. He’s just so darn good and it’s fun. So in honor on mother’s day, I didn’t buy myself a new dress, rather just made one out of some very nice linen. I love linen…
I bunched flower-ish things on the side. I am thinking of undoing it and switching it to the other side, something just doesn’t feel right. I don’t know. Maybe, I am just too picky. Nevertheless, I will be wearing this to celebrate my day (and all the mother’s everywhere) with my little family, whom I love very much.
I still have some sewing to do as I need to make my mother her present (and finish shop orders), so I will be bidding you farewell early. Have a good Thursday, Friday, and tell your mama you love her this weekend!
Happy Mother’s Day everyone (well, to the mamas)!
p.s. I am re-thinking my rule.