testing week is almost done

May 8, 2015

benny and meThe school year is winding down, and I’m so ready to be done. This week was True’s first experience with standardized state testing, and oh boy was I feeling all sorts of anxiety. I asked her how her first day went, and she said, “It was easy and I was the first one done!” That could have meant something totally great or totally not. I don’t know, either way, it made me nervous. I know these scores don’t really measure all that she knows, but I still feel the stress and pressure of it. Probably because I feel responsible for areas she is weak in, and well, I am responsible. The BFF reminded me that she is a well-rounded child (and if they tested her creative abilities, she would blow that thing out of the water). And I know she is, but I still get worked up over this testing thing. Later on today, we are going to do something fun to celebrate surviving standardized testing week! Sounds like that would make a cute t-shirt slogan, maybe we should make one.

The words from “Brokeness Aside” by All Sons & Daughters captures well what I’ve been feeling this week…
‘Cause I am a sinner
If it’s not one thing it’s another
Caught up in words
Tangled in lies
But You are a Savior
And You take brokenness aside
And make it beautiful

I’m a person who likes things to go fast paced, and I fill up my schedule with to-dos. I feel crazy from everything (and probably complain about it), but I totally do it to myself. I enjoy making myself busy, but too much busy isn’t always a good thing. I see how I often try to find my happiness in something fleeting (projects, social media, obedient kids, everything to go as planned, etc.), but I really am just tangled in lies. The good news is that I know I’m not stuck there! God takes my messiness, covers it with Jesus, and makes it beautiful.


3 comments on “testing week is almost done”

  • heather says:

    wow! i have two girls and i homeschool (and babysit a little one)… i’m just sort of on the other end. my older daughter graduated last year and i’ve decided not to babysit anymore. my younger one is only in 7th grade, so i probably have a ways to go with the homeschooling. i’ve been feeling a lot of push to figure out what to do with myself beyond homeschooling- probably since my older girl is thinking about her future. it’s all open to her, and sometimes i feel like it is not all open to me anymore. silly…and all self-imposed, but i do wonder if it is God poking at my heart sometimes.

    we sang this song on sunday and i thought, “that’s what i should be praying” (about all of it). i woke up with it in my head during the week…and now you writing it here, it sort of seems like a personal message to me (and hopefully a lot of others as well). thanks for that! 🙂

    • Rubyellen says:

      How did you survive all those years of homeschooling? I need some tips from you!

  • nikki says:

    what a gorgeous photo of you two! happy friday!

    xx nikki

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